**Mini Rant Alert**
Things I want to do but cannot do for various reasons relating to stupid M.E. despite them being semi-plausible…
Want to (in no particular order):
Have a bath, be clean & dressed everyday, eat whatever I fancy, exercise, sleep sleep sleep, go out somewhere for fun, get a haircut, earn some money, make some art, take my Holga out, meditate, have a chat, do a little housework, have sex, finish putting the front room curtains up, prune shrubs in the garden, lose weight, swallow my pride, diversify my work, do nothing whatsoever.
Not to mention the biggies that are less plausible right now…
Biggies (in no particular order either):
Care for myself, start driving again, be able to go out independently, get a job, buy a house, have a family, get fit. Be well.
There’s nothing like having a flare/crash/relapse (whatever this is) to get you thinking about all the things you can’t do.
It’s not proving very useful to plan what I could do if I felt better when I’m not feeling better. But I can’t seem to switch those kind of thoughts off. I’ve still not learnt now to deal with dips well it seems. In fact it seems I’ve still not accepted I am even in a dip.