As some of you on Facebook might have seen I had an intense noise sensitivity reaction yesterday. There were sudden bursts of squealing grinding drilling from workmen next door – and by that I mean effectively in the rooms next to our bedroom and lounge (pretty much where I am 98% of the time).
I haven’t suffered badly from noise sensitivity for a while now. Sure some things still bug me and some things rob me of all concentration and focus but on the whole it’s been pretty stable. I can even have the telly on and read at the same time which is amazing compared to a couple of years ago.
So not only did I react badly to the noise but I was shocked and scared by the extreme reaction. It seems ridiculous but I was crying and shaking and absolutely desperate to get away from the noise. It didn’t help that I was just at the point of doing something that used my brain and my computer was on a go slow so I was frustrated too plus tired/weary from poor sleep/IBS flare earlier in the week.
I sat at the top of the stairs with my ear defenders on (still able to hear the noise but somewhat muffled) trying to finish the task I had started, shaking and snuffling. The stairs is the furthest point away from our neighbours side. What I really wanted was to be able to go out and escape. So of course that makes it worse because I can’t go anywhere. I am stuck and suddenly feel the weight of that.
The noise didn’t last very long and there were just a few bursts through the early afternoon. My neighbours are wonderful and usually warn me about work but I guess as it was the middle of the day thought it would be ok or forgot this time. And it’s not their fault. How could they know my ME would make me react so badly when I couldn’t have predicted it? And how can you fit windows without making noise? No it’s the ME that has me miffed.
I felt like a wild animal startled by something loud and alien. I wasn’t in control of that intense reaction and it left me exhausted. My throat was sore and my glands were throbbing which is what I used to experience with the slightest stress when my ME was a bit worse. I think this combined with other clues has to indicate that my ME is worse at the moment than I’ve realised. Usually it’s fatigue and brain fog that are my first indicators of a flare or crash but this time it’s other things. Perhaps that shift is due to LDN which has helped the fatigue and the brain fog. Though I did struggle to read a book last night that I was skipping through the day before so cognitives are a bit mushed.
There was I am sure a good reason why I started to blog about this but honestly I’ve forgotten. Completely gone. Brain exploded and sensible thoughts have hidden away in dark corners.
Today, with continued banging, tapping and electric tool noises I’ve had my MP3 earphones in with ear defenders over the top. It’s been quite effective but the ear defenders make my head squashed and hurty after a while. And there’s only so much music I can take in my ears no matter how lovely and calming it may be. Now the sun is out I’m wishing I could just go out even more. Especially as I think my neighbours went out for the day to avoid the noise. I don’t often feel like I’m imprisoned in my home but today I kind of do. Hey it’s only a day or so. And it is the exception to the norm. So I shall be grateful that the norm is so good and just suck it up.