When you’re exhausted, when you’re pain levels are on the up, it’s easy to be distracted. Life keeps on going and if you stopped doing things whilst you felt tired or in pain you’d never do anything. There’s never a time when it stops. Throw into the mix a brain that plays tricks on you – that splutters and falters without a warning.
You put one foot in front of the other. You keep living. But sometimes that exhaustion, that pain, that pre-occupation with migraine or stomach cramps or trying not to fall over, combined with a stuttering brain means that foot can slip into mouth.
I notice that when I try to avoid just reacting, try to censor what I say or do in case foot slips into mouth, I adpot a vacant stare. A question asked is met with an intake of breath and a vacant stare as I think “now … think about this …”. Except those few seconds lead to forgetting every thought I ever had.
Foot in mouth seems, on the whole, to work out better. Even if I cringe for days (if not weeks) when I say something blunt or inappropriate.
I am assured by those who are naturally blunt, that my own bluntness should be nothing of concern to me. But it’s hard to hear these things slip from my mouth when I have always been so measured, always censor my thoughts.
If you ask me a difficult question, a direct question, would an immediate but sometimes blunt response be better than a vacant stare and possibly saying nothing at all?