I’m starting to dream about having ME/CFS. I don’t remember it featuring much previously. But now it is.
Last night I was in a familiar scenario walking down a street from my childhood trying to get to a safe place (places seem to represent certain feelings, fears and thoughts for me). But I was getting more exhausted with every step I took and I was with a family member who had no concept of my illness and it’s effects. I was practically crawling. I was so exhausted I couldn’t think or see straight.
A few night ago I had brain fog in a dream. I mixed my words up in a dream – just like I do in life. I was so stunned I woke up still trying to grasp the word I had really meant. Someone in my dream was telling me a meal was condiment instead of complimentary.
And over the last few weeks I’ve had more dreams of exhaustion and confusion. I ever dreamt I’d had my legs removed in one.
I remember reading someone else blogging about disability and illness invading their dreams. I thought it was a fairly natural thing to happen, for your mind to try and work things out during sleep and this included illness and disability. Now it’s happening to me I admit I feel a bit cheated. At least in my dreams I was free – I was healthy and active and free. I’m glad my brain is working things out – but I wish it could do by letting me run around and be happy!