I’m so exhausted today I feel like a space cadet – that is not with it, sort of disconnected. It feels like I’m a bit high – but there’s no kick or rush. And I wonder if I appear a bit as though I am high – my speech is slow, my brain is slow and I must have a pretty vacant expression.
I’m still astonished at what your body can do and how such small efforts for me can render my brain so slow and faltering.
I used to watch a lot of those fly on the wall airport programmes (hey I have been ill for over 18 months) and I see them kicking suspected drunks off flights. I think – whoa that could be me! “Well, she doesn’t smell of alcohol but she’s obviosuly impaired. Her speech is quite slurry and she’s having problems with her balance – even standing up without wobbling. And she doesn’t seem to be quite understanding what the staff are saying to her.” Hmmm.